There's a reason I'm not a good blogger. Well, actually, there are several. One of them has to do with the fact that I'm a perfectionist. It's something I inherited from my mom.
My mom is an incredible woman. She raised my brother and I without a lot of help from my dad, which is incredible in and of itself. However, that doesn't really have much to do with her perfectionism. My mom is an artist. Colored pencil and pen/ink are her mediums of choice, and she really knows how to make them sing. Anyhow, her artistic ability goes hand in hand with her attention to detail. As a result, she is never fully satisfied with her work; something I understand completely. Anyhow, this relates to my blogging because I'm never satisfied with what I write. I understand that blogging doesn't need to be perfect, profound, or even that well thought out, but I still want it to be. I want everything I do to be polished and air-tight. No promises, but I'm going to work on it.
Another reason I'm not a very good blogger is because I'm terrible at telling stories and even worse about updating things. I always want to give a thousand background details so that whatever story makes sense, but I end up confusing them, losing them, getting sidetracked, or not even getting the point of the story across. There are people who are really gifted at making anything that happens to them interesting or funny- I'm not one of them.
Finally, I'm a bad blogger because I'm super self-conscious. I am more critical of myself than anyone, and I imagine other people judging me more harshly than probably ever would. I'm getting better about it, and one of the things that has helped me the most is realizing that in most cases, it really doesn't matter what other people think of me. When you're living your life for Christ and you take your worth from him, a lot of things stop mattering and it becomes a lot easier to do things that you usually wouldn't.
I know this post isn't very satisfying and pretty sad, but I'll probably post something tomorrow with an update on my life.
Out peace
-Andrew
p.s. My mom drew this :)
http://wcfcourier.com/image_c909bf8a-d45b-11de-ad7a-001cc4c03286.html
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